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I'm remembering HakuBaikou on January 27th for the 6th year and my Mom a month and 9 days. 

Every time at certain times at night rolls around I would cry because I remember the image of my Mom dead then I would be okay. I know, hopefully, I would not be doing this all the time. It's not super vivid like in the first week. It was super fresh.  

I'm still sorry I haven't been active here. It'll take time.  I'm also having problems with neck and spine and it's affecting my sleep. Sitting doesn't help much either. So I'm going to a spine specialist for a second opinion. i hope this guy do a much better job than the one I went to last summer. 

SanoKen is never far from my mind. I just to need to pull myself together. Oh, I'm looking for work too. Earlier this month I've decided not to return my job when I went on a leave of absence. But after my appointment with my spine there is a possibilitiy I might have to ask to return to that job because I don't know if I can get work right away.  It's too bad it's not part time. Less stress on me and my body.  I'll let you know.  

So please be good to yourselves and be careful out there.

Good night! :)
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On Tuesday, December 16, 2014 Mom died at home.  Her ordeal with Alzheimer's was done. Watching her die was really hard but I have no regrets being there with her. My Dad and I have encouraged her go to her Mother, sister, brother and other people who have gone before her. We also told her we love her and will miss her. We have held hands and kiss her forehead and kept doing it until she passed away.  

She has been cremated.  We had her container in my Dad's bedroom but we have company here so I was afraid the kids might do something to it or the dresser that it was sitting on.  I don't know if the kids know that container has their grandmother. The container is currently in my bedroom where it is safe.  It's surrounded by some Southwestern items I've bought years ago. I got Mom's photo leaning against the container.   I have another same photo sitting in the Christmas Tree.  Once Dad dies he'll be in that same type of container as Mom's and together they will go up to Michigan to be scattered in one of the rivers where the salmon swim.  Mom and Dad had fished many years up in Canada so it seems appropriate to have the container to go in the river.  It will dissolve. The container is made for that.  

My brother and family are here for Christmas. Please don't take the wrong way when I say I'll be glad when they leave.  The kids aren't quite disciplined or smart or conscientious being in other people's houses.  They leave a mess. Parents are messy too. -_-;;;

As of right now I still trouble sleeping because I keep seeing Mom dying.  It happened at night at 10. I know the image will soften in time but not forgotten.

Dad and I are okay.  It just takes awhile to get ourselves pulled together and get the rest we sorely needed. We don't have to worry about bringing medications, changing her, I getting up early to set the stuff ready for the CNA to give Mom a bath and other things she couldn't do on her own.

I don't know when I start posting stuff on DA  I think it'll a while. I got things to take of, like my back and deciding what to do with my job that I'm current on leave of absence. I want to find a better one that doesn't inquire sitting down at the computer all day long. My body cannot handle that. At home is different because I'm not all tensed up. 

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Mom, I really miss you but you'll never be forgotten.  I'm trying really hard to remember what you look like even with the help of photographs before the disease robbed you. I know in time it will come back to me. All I care, Mom, is you're free from this horrible disease. I will always love you. I'll keep talking to you to the air if it makes me feel better.  You just keep watching us from wherever you are. Rest in Peace, Mom. :heart: :rose: :pray:
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I'm remembering HakuBaikou on January 27th for the 6th year and my Mom a month and 9 days. 

Every time at certain times at night rolls around I would cry because I remember the image of my Mom dead then I would be okay. I know, hopefully, I would not be doing this all the time. It's not super vivid like in the first week. It was super fresh.  

I'm still sorry I haven't been active here. It'll take time.  I'm also having problems with neck and spine and it's affecting my sleep. Sitting doesn't help much either. So I'm going to a spine specialist for a second opinion. i hope this guy do a much better job than the one I went to last summer. 

SanoKen is never far from my mind. I just to need to pull myself together. Oh, I'm looking for work too. Earlier this month I've decided not to return my job when I went on a leave of absence. But after my appointment with my spine there is a possibilitiy I might have to ask to return to that job because I don't know if I can get work right away.  It's too bad it's not part time. Less stress on me and my body.  I'll let you know.  

So please be good to yourselves and be careful out there.

Good night! :)
  • Mood: Emotional

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Sano x Kenshin FTW! <3
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Sanosuke x Kenshin love! ♥

Done in pink ink pen. :3

Current Residence: Florida
Favourite genre of music: I like the 80s, early 90s music but I mostly love listening to my RK CDs.
Wallpaper of choice: Sanosuke and Kenshin, of course! (if meaning on computer)
Favourite cartoon character: Kenshin!!!! *squeaks*, Kurama, Sanosuke, Bakura, Inuyasha, Yusuke and Yami Yugi.
Personal Quote: Oro!
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NickyVendetta Featured By Owner Sep 19, 2014
Happy late Birthday!! nickyvendetta.deviantart.com/a… But better late than never, right? ^^;

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Thank you! Yep, better late than never. :D   :glomp:
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Happy birthday!! Party Make a wish!:iconlawooplz:Have your cake and eat it too
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Thank you! Cake!!!! *noms happily* I already made a wish. ^w^
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Happiest birthday ^_^
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Thank you. ^w^
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